Pink Flashlight

When I went for testing with Dr. Magic, one of the tests he did was to have my eyes follow a little light. The light it put out was about 1/2 the size of my pinky nail. A tiny white light.

He asked me: "what do you see?" I said: "I see two lights."

This was the first time I was clearly aware that I see two images at the same time. I don't ever remember knowing that about myself. I sort of knew it, but it's been a part of my eyesight for almost 50 years, so I didn't much think about it. I have just adapted the best I can, having been given no tools.

It's hard for me to read. In fact, it's impossible for me to read if I have both eyes open. So I always shut one eye to read. I have recently (well, ok, maybe 4+ years ago) discovered audio books. I love audio books!! They are so much more easy to follow along with and "read." Now I know why I like them so much better than print books - I can listen to the content and not be focusing on the double vision and what my eye(s) is (are) doing.

In the test with the flashlight, Dr. Magic put a pink lens over my right eye. He asked me, "what do you see?"

I stared at it for a while, and I realized that not only did I see two lights - a pink one and a white one, but that the pink one was on the left side despite the fact that the pink lens was on my right eye.

I never knew my eyes transposed things wrong. I see something. with my right eye, but my brain says that it's to the left of where it actually is.

I really DO see the world differently from how healthy people with fantastic eyesight see things.

I wonder if this is one of the many reasons why I have always been drawn to friendships with left handed people. I see things from a literal different angle - things on the right are on the left for me ... as left-handed people do.

Just one of my momentary musings that came up while I was typing this post.