How I See Things

How I See Things
Cartoon-like drawing in shades of dark to medium purple. Eyes with beautiful eyelashes, looking through a pair of glasses.

Monday, November 23, 2020

Syntonics - On Another Blog

Just wanting to share another blog's post about Syntonics. I happened to come across this post today and it's very good. It is from Brain World Magazine.

I hope everyone has a lovely Thanksgiving and Friendsgiving this week!

My boys and I will be having nachos* and watching (I hope) a rerun of the Macy's Thanksgiving Parade. If that's not on, then we will watch the black and white version of "Miracle on 34th Street" because the parade opens that movie. 

*After cooking huge holiday meals for decades and staying in the kitchen while all my family (that I never got to see any other time) would socialize with each other .... I have stopped making huge holiday meals. It's my holiday too. One year I came up with Nachos and enjoyed the parade followed by the Annual Dog Show, and it's such a much more nice, relaxing day for me and my boys look forward to it, too. 

Monday, November 16, 2020

Crepe Myrtle Tree

There is a crepe Myrtle tree outside my vision therapist’s office. One time after a particularly good vision therapy session, I sat in my car to recover. (I often need to sit in my car to recover after vision therapy.)

I looked at this crepe Myrtle tree and saw the trees behind it, across the parking lot, as far away from the crepe Myrtle tree. 

What this means is: I was seeing the tree in 3D! I could see it popping closer to me, as if I was in a 3D movie, wearing those glasses that make things come out at you in the theater. 

It was so nice! This is something I am still learning, still becoming familiar with it. Learning what to do with my eyes to make 3D vision appear. 

I have almost 50 years of bad habits with my eyes to overcome. And I am now unlearning the bad habit and learning the good habit. 

It’s called “convergence.” I have to bring my eyes closer to the center. They drift outwards and that’s my relaxed / normal way to look at the world. But I can’t see 3D when I am doing that. 

So I have to mentally pay attention and bring my right eye closer to the center, then almost pull in my left eye beyond what I have had to do with my right eye. Then I have to look and focus carefully to see if I am seeing in 3D. 

I don’t do it perfectly yet. But I am getting there. I definitely notice a difference!

This crepe Myrtle tree, I love seeing it when I park at my vision therapy place. I use it as an exercise before I go in to my appointment and also when I come back out after the appointment. 

This flat photo doesn’t show the tree popping out. So that shows more like how I USED to see it. 😅 But in real life, I see it popping out towards me, away from the trees in the background. 

Monday, November 2, 2020

Light Sensitivity

Did I mention that I am completely sensitive to light? It is another thing that is connected with Dissociation. 

I walk around my home with as few lamps turned on as possible. I just don't like artificial light. I love the light that comes in through the windows, though! I don't like it when I am sitting on the couch and the sun is setting and the sun glares into my eyes as it moves / as it sets. But the rest of the day, I love the natural light through the windows. 

When Dr. Davis tested me, he said at one point, as if it was obvious to him, "are you sensitive to light?" 

He pointed out something I hadn't realized - I am sensitive to light above my head. I mean, most light comes from above my head. But it turns out that in other ways they have tested me, I see things more easily when they come from below me, and I miss out of a lot of things above me. 

Come to think of it, every time I have had a concussion (and also including the head bumps I get too often when I am getting into my own car!), it is because I didn't see something above me; above my forehead. 

I wonder if them helping me with dissociation and also with the syntonics, light therapy, I wonder if this will help me not be so sensitive to light? I wonder if this will help me not keep my house at darker levels than others keep their house at. (I always figured I was saving energy anyway, so I didn't think much of it, the fact that I kept the house lights off as much as possible. But it has been known to bother room mates of mine over the years.)

Staring into a lightbulb every night for 10 minutes, then 10 minutes again .... even with the dark sunglasses on controlling the color and intensity that hits my eyes, well, it IS bright. In fact, I rather enjoy the indigo glasses and color. Indigo is one of my favorite colors! The green ones are noticeably brighter to me and I don't enjoy staring at that one nearly as much as the indigo. 

Interestingly enough, even though I am staring at a light bulb, it doesn't hurt my eyes the way I kept thinking it would. I would cringe at the beginning, but it hasn't ever hurt my eyes. Doing this day after day after day, I realized I started to look forward to doing it. 

I am supposed to do 20 sessions in a row of this. So far, I am having trouble getting up to more than 8 or 9 days in a row. Then my eyes are just tired and feeling strain. So I have to start my count of days all over again. 

I may have mentioned that in a few months, my son will be starting vision therapy with Dr. Davis' team too. I wonder if he will be given Syntonics / light therapy to do too? I wonder if he will be given different colored sunglasses to look through? 

I look forward to the time that I hope will happen - when I realize I am no longer sensitive to light the way I have been, my whole life. 

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